Shall I or shan't I? That has been a question on my lips a few times over the last 5 days.... I know the answer but still have to ask. Whats the question? 'Shall I have one of my remaining cigarettes?' Answer a resounding 'NO!'
I put out my last cigarette on New years Eve and havent touched one since. At the time of writing this review that was 104 hours ago. Very sad I know to have it all worked out in hours, but once I get past the week stage I will refer to my timings in days rather than hours....hey at least I'm not wittering about minutes be grateful! Here are my rambling's and personal feeling's on the subject.
Why did I start?
I have been promising myself to give up on the cigarettes for a while now. I only started again 2 years ago after 5 years off of the dreaded weed. A ridiculous as it sounds I only started again to get a break! I worked in a place where by smokers (the majority) were treated far more fairly than the minority (Me) whereby they all got breaks. I was expected and did work from 7am to 3pm with out so much as a cup of tea. Yet the smoker's seemed to be able to nip off for a fag whenever. So after starting again for a silly reason I decided (the job had long gone after being used and abused for long enough), it was now time for the smoking to stop.
Why Should I Stop?
Sounds a silly question. But you have to think about it seriously. I had lots of reasons to want to stop.
1) My kids really wanted me too.
2) I really knew I had to
3) I couldn't afford to smoke
4) I have mild Asthma
Setting My Goals:
These being my main reasons for wanting to stop smoking the next stage was to set myself a date to do so. This isn't as simple as it sounds. I will try to explain what I mean by example. A few weeks ago I was totally skint. I found myself in a position where I couldn't afford any cigarettes so didn't smoke for 2 days. Not by choice, but by necessity. I had thought ok so I'll give up now (knowing full well I had a date in mind in the not too distant future). This was a bad plan. As soon as I had money again I wanted to smoke....badly. And of course did so.
- So I decided I would stick with my original plan of stopping on New Years Eve. I would plan things so that I would be in a stronger position to stop. (ie not because I was skint)
- I saw the Governments new Health warning on smoking on TV. It depicted a scene of a funeral and the word 'MUM" depicted in funeral flowers. The advert kept saying "She never smoked in front of her kids"
"She smoked outside"
"But it wasn't enough was it?" Or words to that effect. It hit home. That was me. Protecting the kids but who was protecting me? It was never going to be written on my headstone was it? "She didnt light up infront of her kids!"
So my goals needed to be set realistically. I needed to set a date which suited me at a time which suited me.
New Years Eve-Eve;
I ensured on this day not to buy too many cigarettes. I smoked around 15-20 a day and had made a concientious effort to cut down to at least 10 a day.